Change.

Jika kita mahu tahu di manakah kita di sisi Allah SWT, maka kita patut bertanya di manakah Allah SWT di dalam hati kita?

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One popular saying that’s always struck me as particularly stupid and harmful is, People don’t change. Although everyone has ingrained personality traits, we aren’t held captive by them. Believing that we can’t change encourages us to accept our weaknesses. How many people with substance problems claim they aren’t capable of stopping?

Saying people can’t change is the same as saying people can’t learn. In a sense we’re always changing and always staying the same. When I compare my self of today with my self from a few years ago, I observe that I’m the same but more. I’m the same in how I think and process information but experience has changed the way I interpret everything. Yes, everything. Every day adds a new layer of character. We should anticipate aging with optimism rather than dread. As we grow old the beauty steals inward. People do change. We make every decision for the first time with no obligation to the past. If we control anything, we control our own thoughts and behavior. If can improve anything, it should be ourselves.

If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it.

I have my own thought. Bagi aku tak perlu perli-perli perempuan yang tak bertudung atau berpakaian seksi sebagainya. Memerli dengan menegur banyak bezanya. Bagi aku, kalau nasihat tu datang dari hati yang ikhlas, pujian kita cuma sekadar "Lawa rambut rebonding awak ni, tapi mesti lagi manis kalau bertudung" pun, boleh menusuk ke dalam hati mereka. Lantas, tak mustahil untuk Allah menyelinapkan sedikit rasa keinsafan dan hidayah kepada mereka. Dan perubahan dalam diri mereka seterusnya.

Bukan aku membela mereka yang berdosa apatah lagi menyokong hamba yang ingkar suruhan-Nya. Cuma kita bukan Tuhan. Mungkin dia berdosa tapi belum tentu neraka tempatnya. Kerana mungkin ada amalnya yang Allah angkat lebih baik dan menghapuskan dosa-dosanya yang lain. Kita tak tahu hati manusia, esok lusa mungkin mereka lebih baik daripada kita. Who knows, right?

Time is a dressmaker specializing in alterations.

Sedang aku juga punya banyak kekurangan dan masih memperbaiki diri. Bila mana aku cuba membuka minda semua bukan bermakna ilmu di dada sudah cukup sempurna. Kerana aku juga insan biasa yang masih mencari redha-Nya. Dan kerana iman itu ada naik turunnya, tak terkecuali, aku jua. wallahualam.

Bila manusia mula ambil kerja Tuhan dengan scan-scan hati orang, meneraka dan mensyurgakan orang, maka akan berlakulah kecelaruan.

:)

Emigration

// Indeed, those who have believed and those who have emigrated and fought in the cause of Allah - those expect mercy of Allah. And Allah is Forgiving and Merciful //

// Sesungguhnya orang yang beriman, orang yang berhijrah dan berjuang di jalan Allah, mereka itu mengharapkan rahmat Allah dan Allah itu Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang //

Surah Al-Baqarah (ayat 218)

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A new chapter, a new beginning and a new hope. May Allah bless you and me and fill our life with happiness, full of success and hopefully lead us to hijrah for becoming a better Muslim and Muslimah. It's not easy to begin all over again when I'm already so comfortable with my old routine.

Put this way. If we still don't get the thing we want, just think that Allah wants us to have the better one or have it later. If we still don't get the love we want, just think that Allah wants us to have it later or have it from the one who cares and loves you genuinely. If we still don't get where we want to go, just be grateful for where Allah have let us be before because He knows what the best for us. If we still never get everything that we had wished and keep saying 'Alhamdulillah' and smile, it means Allah wants us to have HIM, the owner of everything. Alhamdulillah.

Some may say why make Hijrah at all if it going be so hard? That is just the point, it is a test, and rewards from Allah in the Hereafter are great. May Allah give us an easy path to Hijrah for His sake.

And I'm on my way to repair some screw that might be loose-fitting.

And still you in my mind, seven.

My new life at the - PUO

Assalamualaikum, all.

It's been obviously quite a while since I last posted. Just a quick catch-up with my life for anyone who might wondering if I'm still alive. Now I'm living in campus at the Politeknik Ungku Omar.

There's about 1 months left to stay in hostel bc next semester I will stay in rent house with my new friends, my classmates and I've been enjoying it so far. I just  wanted to upload some photos of my new life at the PUO. Stayed in hostel was very excited but there's a problem with I am being distracting with other people.

Let pictures tell the whole story. 

Orientation Week with Senior Diploma in Accountancy

KAMSIS's Sport Day

Aras-mate

Project Go Green

Save Our Earth

with Salman Ali Shariati - the iron boy

DAT 1A 

On our way to Padang Polo

2 boys were absent

We're the best

:)

Iqa was trying to be waitress

Look at her hair, one of my efforts.

There must be a childish character in every single normal person.

Ayu's work

I'm proud to do this with - Ecah, Nad, Miza, Anati, Zura and Aza

Polibriged Dinner

Una + Iqa

One missing o.O, where's Tan?

My table

Zura, Izzah + Mizah

My roomate, Nad.

One of my bff in PUO - Azarina

Mizah + Anati

Shazlin

With Yuyu 

Izzah, Azarina, Faten + Syafiq

Last but not least, Amir + Anati

Agrees that somethings are better left unsaid. The key to life's happiness is to stop worrying about what others think of you and just be the best person you can be. The past builds you, the future motivates you. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what is going to happen next.

Overall, I'm OK with my new life. Please don't too much worry about me.

I'm learning to be the matured one. 

Till then, 

xoxo

Tears of the month

It's better to be aware of our weakness compare to realizing a thousand weaknesses of others.

I could sensed that this upcoming raya isn't like those we celebrated years ago, I just don't know. I just don't feel heat. I don't really excited and it feels weird because there are about three days left but I'm still not buy any baju raya yet. (don't mean to say that you can't raya without a new clothes) And kuih, my sister and my mom have make a few varieties. I think I need to add on two or three more, by making it myself.

Ready for the sad news?
Ramadhan soon going to leave us, too sad.

Too tired, I need to get a good rest.
'till we meet again.

Happy Eid Fitr, I beg for your forgiveness.

Bring me to life .

ONE

This is a special request from my friends whom I categorized them as caring and sweet friends, those who left message in my blog asking why don't I update my blog. To my surprise, there's actually quite a lot of them reading and updating my news through this abandoned blog. I didn't know until recently bc usually I don't get too many response and I never though there's anyone who will consistently visiting here for my updates. I'm so sorry my friends. (bajett gila haha) It's not my fault if you believe that I won't update my blog. hahaha

Hihi, I've been trying to hide and escape myself from facing some question that I don't want to be asked anymore. Something that I wish I could erase from my experience in my life. But as time passed by, I know I cannot keep hiding since there's so many out there are actually caring for me.

Here, I'm dedicating this entry to everyone out there, after abandoning my blog for such a long time. Thanks for giving me the courage and encouraging me to hold my feelings.

Hugs and kisses! 

Long distance relationships are hard. You not only miss kisses, hugs and someone to talk to as you fall asleep, but you also miss the friendship, giggles and adventures that you have in day to day life when you are together,

Is it me or you .

Blog, excuse me. Allow me to please write something. I'm in a mixed stated of emotions.

One:

I hate when you meet somebody who has a special hold over you, and no more matter how much time passes that feeling never seems to fade. It never weakens, and sometimes it seems as if it's stronger than before.

Two:

I was too naive to think that I was the luckiest girl in the world. Maybe I was but then again now that I think of it having seen people around me couples around me, friends in love, friends who fight so hard for their loved ones.

Three:

I hate waiting and keep repeating the same things. So pleasee. T_T

Four:

I wish I can have more times to spend for my cutest blog. I wish I can sleep for 9 hours a day. I wish I can spend more time with my Mr. 7. I wish I can wish more and more.

Five:

In 18 years of my life, for the first time I felt deep pain that no one could understand. Thanks to this experience. I walked, I ran, I fell, I got back up. I learnt and maybe even grew up. Truth is life is beautiful but sometimes it tests and that makes everything difficult but as they say this life goes on and we have to live it and deal with the obstacles that come on our way only to destroy and crush them and as what Robinson said keep moving forward! 😞

I'm not writing this because of me being so bitter and can't accept the fact. It just, ahh

In a nutshell?

Hello Diaries.

I can't believe it has been almost 2 weeks since my last post - bad on me. I have begun a new life in somewhere and have been devoting a lot of time to my study. Well, this is what we call student, right? I hope you have a happy Saturday as I'm feeling now. It has been two weeks since I am away from my hometown, away from my family, my lovely fox and my home sweet home. How I wish I could spend more time doing useful things during 6 months of so-called boring holidays. I should cherish holidays well before I leave to a new world full of numbers and facts.

I have gotten used to the new environment. It would be a lie if I tell you that I do not miss my family at all. *bajet jauh gila. haha. But I have so many companions and friends over here, it was so much fun that I do not feel homesick at all. Talking about new life as a IPT student, I have started with my lessons bit by bit. It was kinda tough, really. I do not mean the schedule, I'm referring to all subjects. ALL IN ENGLISH. And I feel lost.

First week was so pressure with all orientation and all kinda silly programs. But I'm thankful enough to have such intelligent, experienced and versatile (wait, what? haha) lecturers. Even though sometimes people are just not satisfied over a small matter, I personally think that it was due to indulgence and upbringing influences. I might have never completed my school works when I was in school, so it might kinda hard for me to complete the assignments which will given to me at one time. However, I believe that all lecturers do that and it is part of their jobs to give us extra works to do by ourselves. Without assignments, we're not IPT's student, kannn?

Regarding the class, there are around 45 of us in a classroom. I could say, it was fine, but somehow feel like I still need more time to get to know them more. And I think they feel the same thing too. The class somehow made me missing my school times.

I realized that I am now in a new world, in an entirely different world. I'm no longer living in my own world, but in other's, which, I have to get myself used to the environment. I have to be able to adapt myself to the new surroundings, learn to live and learn to accept new things and accept challenges. All of my friends are now away too, and they live happily now. So I have to be just like them too. I believe sooner or later, I will get used to the new classmates, hostel-mate, level-mate, roommate and mingle around with them. So far my aras are the best, Block A , Aras 2.

They are not that bad. In fact, they have their own interesting sides in them too. It's still a new thing to me so I'm kinda surprised, but I like it. They get along easily despite living in different states in Malaysia which is most of them are from Negeri Sembilan. They are nice to each other too. It was just me who still can't bring myself close to them. Like I said, I'm not good at making new friends and I need more time, even longer than others. So, I believe that I'll be able to be friend with them sooner or later. By the way, I can live in hostel just for one semester only. The next sem, all student must find their own rent house. And to be proud, our ketua block A, Kak Yana, which is the best senior bcz tahan dgn various of our behavior yang always lambat. lol hahaha

I like not only to be loved, but also to be told that I am loved. I am not sure that you are of the same mind, but the realm of silence is large enough beyond the grave. This is the world of light and speech, and I shall take a leave to tell you are very dear. - George Eliot - 

I love my English subject. The perfect lecturer that I ever have. I wish till end of semester her class will be fun like we'd have.

I wish to write more, but seems like I have to go now. My assignment are calling me. And please, stop asking me "Are you from sekolah agama?" Enough, kan dah kata, people love judge other by their clothes. I'm NOT from SMKA or anything like that. I'm a ordinary just like you are kot. sobs sobs

But hey,

don't you feel grateful with what you have in your life?

til then,

xoxo