Is it me or you .

Blog, excuse me. Allow me to please write something. I'm in a mixed stated of emotions.

One:

I hate when you meet somebody who has a special hold over you, and no more matter how much time passes that feeling never seems to fade. It never weakens, and sometimes it seems as if it's stronger than before.

Two:

I was too naive to think that I was the luckiest girl in the world. Maybe I was but then again now that I think of it having seen people around me couples around me, friends in love, friends who fight so hard for their loved ones.

Three:

I hate waiting and keep repeating the same things. So pleasee. T_T

Four:

I wish I can have more times to spend for my cutest blog. I wish I can sleep for 9 hours a day. I wish I can spend more time with my Mr. 7. I wish I can wish more and more.

Five:

In 18 years of my life, for the first time I felt deep pain that no one could understand. Thanks to this experience. I walked, I ran, I fell, I got back up. I learnt and maybe even grew up. Truth is life is beautiful but sometimes it tests and that makes everything difficult but as they say this life goes on and we have to live it and deal with the obstacles that come on our way only to destroy and crush them and as what Robinson said keep moving forward! 😞

I'm not writing this because of me being so bitter and can't accept the fact. It just, ahh

In a nutshell?

Hello Diaries.

I can't believe it has been almost 2 weeks since my last post - bad on me. I have begun a new life in somewhere and have been devoting a lot of time to my study. Well, this is what we call student, right? I hope you have a happy Saturday as I'm feeling now. It has been two weeks since I am away from my hometown, away from my family, my lovely fox and my home sweet home. How I wish I could spend more time doing useful things during 6 months of so-called boring holidays. I should cherish holidays well before I leave to a new world full of numbers and facts.

I have gotten used to the new environment. It would be a lie if I tell you that I do not miss my family at all. *bajet jauh gila. haha. But I have so many companions and friends over here, it was so much fun that I do not feel homesick at all. Talking about new life as a IPT student, I have started with my lessons bit by bit. It was kinda tough, really. I do not mean the schedule, I'm referring to all subjects. ALL IN ENGLISH. And I feel lost.

First week was so pressure with all orientation and all kinda silly programs. But I'm thankful enough to have such intelligent, experienced and versatile (wait, what? haha) lecturers. Even though sometimes people are just not satisfied over a small matter, I personally think that it was due to indulgence and upbringing influences. I might have never completed my school works when I was in school, so it might kinda hard for me to complete the assignments which will given to me at one time. However, I believe that all lecturers do that and it is part of their jobs to give us extra works to do by ourselves. Without assignments, we're not IPT's student, kannn?

Regarding the class, there are around 45 of us in a classroom. I could say, it was fine, but somehow feel like I still need more time to get to know them more. And I think they feel the same thing too. The class somehow made me missing my school times.

I realized that I am now in a new world, in an entirely different world. I'm no longer living in my own world, but in other's, which, I have to get myself used to the environment. I have to be able to adapt myself to the new surroundings, learn to live and learn to accept new things and accept challenges. All of my friends are now away too, and they live happily now. So I have to be just like them too. I believe sooner or later, I will get used to the new classmates, hostel-mate, level-mate, roommate and mingle around with them. So far my aras are the best, Block A , Aras 2.

They are not that bad. In fact, they have their own interesting sides in them too. It's still a new thing to me so I'm kinda surprised, but I like it. They get along easily despite living in different states in Malaysia which is most of them are from Negeri Sembilan. They are nice to each other too. It was just me who still can't bring myself close to them. Like I said, I'm not good at making new friends and I need more time, even longer than others. So, I believe that I'll be able to be friend with them sooner or later. By the way, I can live in hostel just for one semester only. The next sem, all student must find their own rent house. And to be proud, our ketua block A, Kak Yana, which is the best senior bcz tahan dgn various of our behavior yang always lambat. lol hahaha

I like not only to be loved, but also to be told that I am loved. I am not sure that you are of the same mind, but the realm of silence is large enough beyond the grave. This is the world of light and speech, and I shall take a leave to tell you are very dear. - George Eliot - 

I love my English subject. The perfect lecturer that I ever have. I wish till end of semester her class will be fun like we'd have.

I wish to write more, but seems like I have to go now. My assignment are calling me. And please, stop asking me "Are you from sekolah agama?" Enough, kan dah kata, people love judge other by their clothes. I'm NOT from SMKA or anything like that. I'm a ordinary just like you are kot. sobs sobs

But hey,

don't you feel grateful with what you have in your life?

til then,

xoxo

If you eager to know

It's a real quick, simple, and short post just to welcome July and and I am quiet sure, this month will have a big differences compare with few months ago bcz I'll not living my life to the fullest like before (everyday since last december). haha! I admit, I'm starting to get bored on waking up, and living my life with the same routine sometimes. I mean, even working and make some money every months, but sitting in front of computer online and online for almost eight hours a day in this super-sweet-office is very spurt back pain. Haha

All the times we had together

This will be the last post from home, as tomorrow will sign in PUO for my diploma. Yeah, diploma jeee. Nak cakap banyak tapi tak tahu macam mana. Well thank you UPU sebab bagi I Politeknik instead of University. I promise I'll get dekan for every semeseters. (joke) Numbers, we'll be a good friend sooner or later, please be nice to me ya.

New chapter, new friends

One thing, I hate making new friends in a new place. So, people please be nice to me. It's just because I hate that I can't be with the same person, they're not there for me anymore. No one will wake me up, prepare for my breakfast, babbler on me, 'Wani, dah siap ke belum?' - 'Wani, susu mak dah buat, jangan lupa minum' - 'Wani dah ambil bekal kat dapur?' and so on. No one will keep remind me of everything like my mother use to do. No one. I hate new places where people will judge me and look me from head to toe, making their fugly faces - only then will say Hi and whatever. They're like scanning me first googling about me with others, lepas tu baru nak senyumlah konon. Stressed even all thing dah pack. I wish, I wish, and I wish everything will be fine for me tomorrow, and always.

I won't forget about all the joys and memories that happened every single day, and those pretty people batch 2009 SMTI 4PERD1 and 2010 SMKSY 5SC1. You guys are better than best, I hate that we won't get to hang out together and gossiping around like before anymore. No more dramas, no more heaven, no more memories and no more loud voice from Sam. haha

I am taking diploma in Accounting and going to introduce myself as an acc lady starting tomorrow.