My new life at the - PUO

Assalamualaikum, all.

It's been obviously quite a while since I last posted. Just a quick catch-up with my life for anyone who might wondering if I'm still alive. Now I'm living in campus at the Politeknik Ungku Omar.

There's about 1 months left to stay in hostel bc next semester I will stay in rent house with my new friends, my classmates and I've been enjoying it so far. I just  wanted to upload some photos of my new life at the PUO. Stayed in hostel was very excited but there's a problem with I am being distracting with other people.

Let pictures tell the whole story. 

Orientation Week with Senior Diploma in Accountancy

KAMSIS's Sport Day

Aras-mate

Project Go Green

Save Our Earth

with Salman Ali Shariati - the iron boy

DAT 1A 

On our way to Padang Polo

2 boys were absent

We're the best

:)

Iqa was trying to be waitress

Look at her hair, one of my efforts.

There must be a childish character in every single normal person.

Ayu's work

I'm proud to do this with - Ecah, Nad, Miza, Anati, Zura and Aza

Polibriged Dinner

Una + Iqa

One missing o.O, where's Tan?

My table

Zura, Izzah + Mizah

My roomate, Nad.

One of my bff in PUO - Azarina

Mizah + Anati

Shazlin

With Yuyu 

Izzah, Azarina, Faten + Syafiq

Last but not least, Amir + Anati

Agrees that somethings are better left unsaid. The key to life's happiness is to stop worrying about what others think of you and just be the best person you can be. The past builds you, the future motivates you. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what is going to happen next.

Overall, I'm OK with my new life. Please don't too much worry about me.

I'm learning to be the matured one. 

Till then, 

xoxo

Tears of the month

It's better to be aware of our weakness compare to realizing a thousand weaknesses of others.

I could sensed that this upcoming raya isn't like those we celebrated years ago, I just don't know. I just don't feel heat. I don't really excited and it feels weird because there are about three days left but I'm still not buy any baju raya yet. (don't mean to say that you can't raya without a new clothes) And kuih, my sister and my mom have make a few varieties. I think I need to add on two or three more, by making it myself.

Ready for the sad news?
Ramadhan soon going to leave us, too sad.

Too tired, I need to get a good rest.
'till we meet again.

Happy Eid Fitr, I beg for your forgiveness.

Bring me to life .

ONE

This is a special request from my friends whom I categorized them as caring and sweet friends, those who left message in my blog asking why don't I update my blog. To my surprise, there's actually quite a lot of them reading and updating my news through this abandoned blog. I didn't know until recently bc usually I don't get too many response and I never though there's anyone who will consistently visiting here for my updates. I'm so sorry my friends. (bajett gila haha) It's not my fault if you believe that I won't update my blog. hahaha

Hihi, I've been trying to hide and escape myself from facing some question that I don't want to be asked anymore. Something that I wish I could erase from my experience in my life. But as time passed by, I know I cannot keep hiding since there's so many out there are actually caring for me.

Here, I'm dedicating this entry to everyone out there, after abandoning my blog for such a long time. Thanks for giving me the courage and encouraging me to hold my feelings.

Hugs and kisses! 

Long distance relationships are hard. You not only miss kisses, hugs and someone to talk to as you fall asleep, but you also miss the friendship, giggles and adventures that you have in day to day life when you are together,

Is it me or you .

Blog, excuse me. Allow me to please write something. I'm in a mixed stated of emotions.

One:

I hate when you meet somebody who has a special hold over you, and no more matter how much time passes that feeling never seems to fade. It never weakens, and sometimes it seems as if it's stronger than before.

Two:

I was too naive to think that I was the luckiest girl in the world. Maybe I was but then again now that I think of it having seen people around me couples around me, friends in love, friends who fight so hard for their loved ones.

Three:

I hate waiting and keep repeating the same things. So pleasee. T_T

Four:

I wish I can have more times to spend for my cutest blog. I wish I can sleep for 9 hours a day. I wish I can spend more time with my Mr. 7. I wish I can wish more and more.

Five:

In 18 years of my life, for the first time I felt deep pain that no one could understand. Thanks to this experience. I walked, I ran, I fell, I got back up. I learnt and maybe even grew up. Truth is life is beautiful but sometimes it tests and that makes everything difficult but as they say this life goes on and we have to live it and deal with the obstacles that come on our way only to destroy and crush them and as what Robinson said keep moving forward! 😞

I'm not writing this because of me being so bitter and can't accept the fact. It just, ahh

In a nutshell?

Hello Diaries.

I can't believe it has been almost 2 weeks since my last post - bad on me. I have begun a new life in somewhere and have been devoting a lot of time to my study. Well, this is what we call student, right? I hope you have a happy Saturday as I'm feeling now. It has been two weeks since I am away from my hometown, away from my family, my lovely fox and my home sweet home. How I wish I could spend more time doing useful things during 6 months of so-called boring holidays. I should cherish holidays well before I leave to a new world full of numbers and facts.

I have gotten used to the new environment. It would be a lie if I tell you that I do not miss my family at all. *bajet jauh gila. haha. But I have so many companions and friends over here, it was so much fun that I do not feel homesick at all. Talking about new life as a IPT student, I have started with my lessons bit by bit. It was kinda tough, really. I do not mean the schedule, I'm referring to all subjects. ALL IN ENGLISH. And I feel lost.

First week was so pressure with all orientation and all kinda silly programs. But I'm thankful enough to have such intelligent, experienced and versatile (wait, what? haha) lecturers. Even though sometimes people are just not satisfied over a small matter, I personally think that it was due to indulgence and upbringing influences. I might have never completed my school works when I was in school, so it might kinda hard for me to complete the assignments which will given to me at one time. However, I believe that all lecturers do that and it is part of their jobs to give us extra works to do by ourselves. Without assignments, we're not IPT's student, kannn?

Regarding the class, there are around 45 of us in a classroom. I could say, it was fine, but somehow feel like I still need more time to get to know them more. And I think they feel the same thing too. The class somehow made me missing my school times.

I realized that I am now in a new world, in an entirely different world. I'm no longer living in my own world, but in other's, which, I have to get myself used to the environment. I have to be able to adapt myself to the new surroundings, learn to live and learn to accept new things and accept challenges. All of my friends are now away too, and they live happily now. So I have to be just like them too. I believe sooner or later, I will get used to the new classmates, hostel-mate, level-mate, roommate and mingle around with them. So far my aras are the best, Block A , Aras 2.

They are not that bad. In fact, they have their own interesting sides in them too. It's still a new thing to me so I'm kinda surprised, but I like it. They get along easily despite living in different states in Malaysia which is most of them are from Negeri Sembilan. They are nice to each other too. It was just me who still can't bring myself close to them. Like I said, I'm not good at making new friends and I need more time, even longer than others. So, I believe that I'll be able to be friend with them sooner or later. By the way, I can live in hostel just for one semester only. The next sem, all student must find their own rent house. And to be proud, our ketua block A, Kak Yana, which is the best senior bcz tahan dgn various of our behavior yang always lambat. lol hahaha

I like not only to be loved, but also to be told that I am loved. I am not sure that you are of the same mind, but the realm of silence is large enough beyond the grave. This is the world of light and speech, and I shall take a leave to tell you are very dear. - George Eliot - 

I love my English subject. The perfect lecturer that I ever have. I wish till end of semester her class will be fun like we'd have.

I wish to write more, but seems like I have to go now. My assignment are calling me. And please, stop asking me "Are you from sekolah agama?" Enough, kan dah kata, people love judge other by their clothes. I'm NOT from SMKA or anything like that. I'm a ordinary just like you are kot. sobs sobs

But hey,

don't you feel grateful with what you have in your life?

til then,

xoxo

If you eager to know

It's a real quick, simple, and short post just to welcome July and and I am quiet sure, this month will have a big differences compare with few months ago bcz I'll not living my life to the fullest like before (everyday since last december). haha! I admit, I'm starting to get bored on waking up, and living my life with the same routine sometimes. I mean, even working and make some money every months, but sitting in front of computer online and online for almost eight hours a day in this super-sweet-office is very spurt back pain. Haha

All the times we had together

This will be the last post from home, as tomorrow will sign in PUO for my diploma. Yeah, diploma jeee. Nak cakap banyak tapi tak tahu macam mana. Well thank you UPU sebab bagi I Politeknik instead of University. I promise I'll get dekan for every semeseters. (joke) Numbers, we'll be a good friend sooner or later, please be nice to me ya.

New chapter, new friends

One thing, I hate making new friends in a new place. So, people please be nice to me. It's just because I hate that I can't be with the same person, they're not there for me anymore. No one will wake me up, prepare for my breakfast, babbler on me, 'Wani, dah siap ke belum?' - 'Wani, susu mak dah buat, jangan lupa minum' - 'Wani dah ambil bekal kat dapur?' and so on. No one will keep remind me of everything like my mother use to do. No one. I hate new places where people will judge me and look me from head to toe, making their fugly faces - only then will say Hi and whatever. They're like scanning me first googling about me with others, lepas tu baru nak senyumlah konon. Stressed even all thing dah pack. I wish, I wish, and I wish everything will be fine for me tomorrow, and always.

I won't forget about all the joys and memories that happened every single day, and those pretty people batch 2009 SMTI 4PERD1 and 2010 SMKSY 5SC1. You guys are better than best, I hate that we won't get to hang out together and gossiping around like before anymore. No more dramas, no more heaven, no more memories and no more loud voice from Sam. haha

I am taking diploma in Accounting and going to introduce myself as an acc lady starting tomorrow.

Takkan pernah lupa (Part 2)

Song playing : Hujan - Muda

updated,

29/4/2011

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Banyak benda aku nak cakap, tapi bila bukak je blog banyak tu semua hilang. sobs

Okay, sambung balik. Masa awal masuk kelas, aku kena tegur dengan ketua kelas si Khalis, sebab aku dok sibuk betulkan plastik meja. Dia suruh berhenti, dengar dulu cikgu addmaths mengajar. Time tu sumpah nak nangis weh. Hari first kot, memang aku takda mood langsung. See my face? Never smile at all. haha 

Begitulah hari-hari seterusnya. Sekejap, aku lupa la since bila aku rapat dgn Jannah.

my bunnies, forever

Sejujurnya, masa awal dulu aku memang stress gila. Konon-konon nak betul-betul study sebab PMR tak dapat straight A's macam parent aku expected. Aku ingat lagi satu masa tu, depa ni ajak aku lepak satu tempat dengan diorang, tapi aku buta-buta tolak atas alasan; aku nak study. 

Honeys, lemme tell you. 

Aku bukan saja-saja tolak, aku kenal diri aku. Kalau korang bercakap, for sure aku akan tutup buku dan join bersembang. haha, aku kaki sembang yang pantang di ajak bersembang laa. Dah lama-lama aku mula adapt dengan depa even kadang-kadang mengumpat satu sama lain belakang-belakang, haha. Aku tau la kome ada cakap-cakap belakang aku, sebab orang sampaikan balik ke aku, tapi aku tak kisah dan tak ambil hati pun. Kita semua ada hak untuk bercakap kan? Mesti ada je sedikit sebanyak yang tak sependapat kan kan. Dan hati aku, susah nak baca..banyak benda aku suka berahsia. Karang tak tanya tiba-tiba bercerita pun, over pulekss kan. 

dah mula lupa diri haha

Sama prep, dining, bawa hpone, haha. Menggedik tak kira tempat, ni Kyra la mengajar haha. Satu benda aku suka pasal kelas aku, the girls (tak semua) tak da nak cover-cover acting baik depan lelaki.

it is normal to be honest , and it is a MUST - shrfh

Oh, kelas aku bukan semua perempuan. Ada jugak lelaki, cuma aku kurang cakap dengan dorang sebab kawan perempuan dah ramai sangat haha. Sadis kan, bila teringat balik, menyesal. haha. Just sekali dua je aku sembang dgn depa. 

Banyak kenangan ohoii, paling aku ingat, ada satu malam, semua nak rumble (betul ke ejanya?) sirae . Tapi masa tu tirahani ni tak sihat, demam. Dan dorm aku la yang sorokkan dia daripada budak-budak lain. Kesian dia, menangis sbb kena rumble jugak akhirnya. Malam tu, rasanya aku jaga kau kan kan kan? haha 

Ingat tak Lily ada buat $@#% dan aku ada rakam vdeo tu, dia nyanyi lagu ketika cinta bertasbih. Video tu dah hilang, sedih betul. Gambar je still dalam simpanan aku, tapi tak boleh publish, time tu kita freehair.

Takkan pernah lupa (Part 1)

Song playing : Hujan - Muda

Tamatlah zaman persekolahanMasih dihantui memori 

Waktu kecil waktu yang gemilang 

Oh Tuhan ku tak mahu pergi 

Alangkah indahnya dunia 

Bila kita semua tak akan membesar 

Alangkah indahnya dunia 

Bila kita semua akan bersama selamanya

I miss 4 Perdangangan 1 (2009)

Hari pertama di Pejabat S***, aku jumpa Dayah dan Wani Peah. Wani, nama sama, jurusan sama, blok asrama sama, sama aras cuma sebelah kelas dan sebelah dorm. Aku ingat lagi hari pertama aku masuk sekolah tu, semua pandang aku. Lagak macam aku bukan sama macam diorang. Hari pertama, aku rasa menyampah. Aku rasa aku betul-betul tak boleh masuk dengan perangai hu-ha diorang.

Hari pertama, tak ada meja tak ada kerusi. Aku ingat lagi paling banyak cakap Shrfh. Dia tanya itu ini kat mak aku sama macam Lily. Tapi satu pun tak menarik minat aku. Aku rasa kosong, mungkin sebab masa tu meninggalkan yang tersayang (kononnya) lul haha.

Afiqiah Nuruljannah - one of bestfriend aku sepanjang kat asrama

Time passes. Memories fade. Feelings change. People leave. But hearts never forget.

Mak abah balik, aku pun start rasa nak nangis. Weh, aku bawak handphone okay masa hari pertama. Muka je acah-acah suci, rindu rumah. Walhal. 😂

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