It takes few months to write these.
And I'm pretty sure that you wouldn't read this.
'Unfriend' in facebook is easy. But how to unfriend from the heart?
I'm sorry for a lot of things, but most of all that I never got the chance to tell you how I truly felt about you. I can't tell you it anymore, you know, that would be awkward. So all I'm gonna say is thanks, thanks for who you are and what we had.
It’s upsetting to think that someone can, after so long, so many memories and so much love, just turn around and say, "Sorry, we aren't friend anymore." After everything they have gone through, it hurts to think about how somebody can change their mind on such a thing as their heart don't want anymore. I can’t even begin to understand the reasons behind this. I know things change and nothing lasts, but I just can’t seem to comprehend how can a feeling change, just like that, in a blink of an eye? And it scares me, so much.
I look back on us and how we called each other best friends, funny cause in our situation the label was there but no promise attached to it's end. Our friendship was built up on a thousand smiles. i remember putting so much trust in you and you have prove me wrong, so many times you had me in
tears, making up apologies cause i had no idea what
i did wrong.
Sometimes you have to cry for no reason to make up for all the times you wanted to cry and didn't. If we really want to love we must learn how to forgive.
Don’t tell me that you're sorry.
I’m so passed the things you say that you don't mean.
And I mean it when i say, don't ever talk to me again.
You hurt me. You deliberately hurt me. Put yourself in my shoes.
I looked back on us today, and I honestly don’t know why I missed you, and why I wanted you back. Sure, at the beginning we were kids rushing into things we had no idea what about, but slowly, instead of trusting you more, I trusted you less. But now I’m free, and I’m not sorry. I had to get out. I knew it was over long before you said it. And I thought you broke my heart, but you merely made it stronger, made it resilient. Of course I’ll never forget you, but there’s no way.
You thought I couldn't do this without you, but guess what, I sleep great at night now. I don't hurt because you're not here. I just had to learn to accept it and move on, and I did.
Letting go is something you do when you still love someone, but just don't believe in them anymore.
I know a lot of people know who she is, but I also know there are not that many who got to see the side of the bestfriend that I did. And that girl, well, I'll never forget her, never. I've learned so much about life and emotion from knowing her and I wouldn't change a thing about it. Your heart needs to go through some bumps like these in order to make it through. And I know no matter how many months go by, my stomach will always do a little flip whenever I see that face.
I can't believe I just gave up. I just let you drop out of my life. I tried to make you stay, then one day it got too hard and I saw what you really wanted was a life without me. So I gave up and now you're really gone. Wishes and reminiscing do nothing but make my heart break a little bit more.
